Hey Everyone i made up some stuff well a story soo i want people to rad n tel me if they like it or not ok... based on my life

A Life of a Teen

In the life of a teen there are always precautions , we all face things from bullying, friends , clubs, school, all basically life. WE never seem to care much only few seem too, I always hated school we all face a deal of trouble but so did I. I grew up with 3 sister, my 2 younger sister and one oldest but I then soon met my other three sister all older then me. I also grew up barely seeing my parents, only on week days, my mother I loved always was caring, but sometimes had a anger issue but everyone could see were I got my stubborn attitude from, my dad was a responsible guy, but though at times he always had some reason everyone made a clique of friends and we all knew what they were. :

Jocks Preps Goth

Punk Skaters Geeks

Nerds

WE all fell into a category as for me I fell into almost all of them, when I was in elementary school. I was known as a prep , a cool Girl, a popular. I had so much friends, everybody knew me but at the same time I was a Jock a tomboyish girl, any sport I did was competitive I was one of the best players. Every Girl had a crush on someone at least in my age a 10 year old girl crushing on her best guy friend in this case boys. But When I entered 4^th grade things changed. We made new neighbors I really didn’t really care after all I was not one to really be interested unless it had to deal with other things like my friends.

I had been hanging out with my friend I’ll just call her Cutes because her name doesn’t need to be known in this story. Cutes and I have known each other since 4^th grade anyways back the story, Cutes and I had been hanging out and a little girl came to us wanting to play, we had agreed and turns out she was our neighbor , as time flew by we got to know her better, her name but I’ll call her bell. She was a cool girl but problem was she was spoiled at time, but it doesn’t matter we all get spoiled, but then I found out she had two sisters, one about cutes and my age, and one my oldest sisters age.

Ok, When we met Bell we soon met her sister who was about my age, I got to be best friends with her.

She was cool but as time flew by I got to learn more about her, and she got to learn more about me, here I’ll call her Pat, when we entered 5^th grade everything changed. only one word explained it all.

Yes the dreadful word changed everything, And you won’t believe who did it , Someone I thought I could trust, and used to be my best friend Pat. I Learned from my trusted friends she had been spreading rumors about. And As days past people started to keep away from me. No one would talk to me but who knew the person you knew you could trust would treat me, someone who helped her make friends , earn friends would do this to me. I hated her , and I hope it still would but I grew out of it because I knew holding a grudge on her wouldn’t do anything , although I do know that I will never be her friend. She taught me who my real friends where.

They were the ones who stuck with me even though they heard rumors about me, they still helped me, they stayed with me , talked with me and even cared about me.

6^th grade then soon came, And I became a Punk/Goth I wore black all the time and made sure I knew my true friends. I was also a nerd getting high honors. But still the same old Jock I also made two best friends names here I’ll say are Asuka and Li. Nothing Changed really except kids in my school were so immature. Through out all my Middle school years know , all I saw was how the world was changing every little kid I saw were being influenced wrong it made me so mad seeing this.

I felt stupid so I kept in contact with some of my old friend from Japan I actually met them through my dear friend Nikki may she rest in peace but I hope she is still alive. Life is beginning to change as we speak I want life to change but into a better world and hope kids don’t go through what I went through. I will miss all my friends when I go to middle school cause it a whole new life now and new beginning.

The Life a New Teen means new friendships, new styles, new things, and a new beginnings but some people never change but as for me I’ve changed a lot from my quiet self to and intelligent girl, with a wild temper. But I’m just an Average girl hoping to have a normal life and a better path to follow , hoping to get into medical school, maybe even Harvard but all I know is, my life changed I have more responsibilities. Taking care of my sisters, studying to get into a good college, getting into college, finding a job, and supporting my family. This is the life of a teen, a life of mine.

Well i hope ya like it i plan on making more soon ok

**MIKKI**

Hey Everyone its me Mikki,

I'm gonna star all over again on this xanga and yes ill keep the memories i put in each of my entries, so that i kno wati hav been through and to never forget, without them  hav no memories of all the onesi used to kno.

ANywaysss ill start off with my intro:

My names mikki, i go by many name s but prefer mikki better. I'm part of an organization called Organization XIII of Roy W. Brown. I'm Third Rank member of the group. In the group i'm known as Lotus Wind Blade (its weird i kno i coldn't of anything) I'm generally nice only to my friends,but my mood constantly changes through out the day.

So Watch out 

Dear Diary,

               Its kinda stupid to say that but hey i don't care anywayzz.... Its been a longitme since its now April. And I'm still feeling depressed , everyone seems to be thinking they've had it hard. Well here's a  something for them to know, BULLSHIT!!!! you think you had a hard life, have you been through mine. Everyday i go through bullying and teachers aren't their to help ,they always believe the ones that try to act innocent, or the ones that show more emotion. NOT only bullyin' even my own friends bully me, it seems that everytime you make a friend its by bullyin' me or teasin' me or callin' me names. Some of my friends know to back away sometimes, but i'm always hurt anyway, my own family yells at me everyday, trying a reasom to take their anger on me. My Parents talk verbal abuse at me and it hurts me more to hear they tell me how much they despise me, I'm an idiot, you don't use your brain, do you care about this family, and more.

               I'm been hurt so many times, and i have to go through it more then once. Life's not perfect and no ones perfect, its seems that i get hurt everyday, and no one cares. I have no one to help me be happy, and i had one before that person died in a car accident, basically ,i guess i don't deserve happiness. All my life, has been tortured, I mean sure in my past i had happiness, but my happiness came to an end, i learned the true meaning of pain. And i can't seem to help but hide my emotion. I don't want people to be sad because of me so i just keep shut but it never seems to help. My friends end up finding out i'm hurt inside and try to help, I'm greatful for some of my friends, who do.

               My eyes always keep tearing when no one is around , because i feel like a knife has cut through me, I know suicide won't answer my questions, Why Does it hurt?, Why does my heart hurt so much?, Can I really be happy? I had soo many questions not answered. "Crying never helped me it just makes you weak" an old friend  once told,  but since the day of the accident i broke down, I know, she would not want me to act like this, So i made a promise before they buried her "I will not breakdown, I'l find a way, and if not then so be it, I will suffer" I would have said more but i felt like crying and it was too cheesy , I could not even go to her funeral, her parents never liked me.

                 Now, about my day, its been ok but i feel really stupid, a total asshole. I've hurt a friend of mine its seems thats what i do, My mouth , my words, always hurt someone, and i never seem to stop until its really hurts them badly, i never wanted it to happen but it just seems too. And i have something to say if they never hear me say this to them. " I'm Sorry, I'm an Asshole , And don't deserve to be your friend, My words are plan stupid and i hope you understand.

                   If Any of my friends read this well atleast you no how i feel, and don't have to worry about me. I'll be alright, cause if you do worry about me I'll be sad more, i don't want anyone sorry for me. I wish i never was born i seem to cause much pain and pain always seem to happen to me. If anyting should have happen to me atleast you know, I am an Asshole, And that if things go wrong between our friendship, atleast we had agood friendship while it lasted  with good memories and i will miss you guys, i will also miss you guys once 8th grade is over, some of you guys will be moving and i will miss you. I hope we all meet again and i get to see how much you guys have changed..lol anywayzz take care.

Sincerley,

**Mikki**

OK SO here its is my story hope ya like !!!!!

Dear journal ,

           Its Been a long time since i wrote in one, LIke 3 grade lol!!! ,oh well  anywayz my birthday passed a couple weeks ago March 6, it was . For as long as I could remember I had dreamed of a place where every thing was different from the life, I lived here. Here would be in NEw Jersey. Some people thought that NJ was the perfect place to live. That nothing bad happened there. What they don’t understand is that NJ isn’t a perfect place. No it like many other states and countries has its problems. And unfortunately I experienced some the these troubles everyday since the day I was born. When I was younger I would dream of people coming to rescue me but then after years of hoping and nothing happening i finally quit knowing that no one cared about what happened to me. All they cared about was there selves. I Barely was greeted and felt all alone , no one seemed to care anyways i grew thinking the world was cold. BEfore all this i was what people called the popular group i was known through out my school ,until things began to change. My old school brings so much memory to me happy and painful memories. AS everyone began to know me lies were formed, people began to ignore me and say things that weren't true. Everything began to change i lost most of my friends and as middle school came i changed completely, no one really remebered me so, it wasn't that hard to notice. I began to see how much of a fool i was to be the goody two shoes everyone thought of me so  chaned no longer was i the girly little girl everyone knew but now the spunky athletic and punky girl. People had changed me to what i was know and now i begin to tell my tale to veryone of my life well so far half my life. No longer was i the girl you knew back then but now a whole knew person, my life changed thanx to people who believed in rumors and lies. DOn't always believe what peole say you need to see what the real deal was not what someone said cuase it changes everything you once knew and everything that had happened. Reader what you are about to read is based on real life, and is no joke. this is basically my journal on things that have happened in my life. I'll be sure to write more readers ok TTYL!!!.

                                                                                                             **Mikki**

P.S. I am not EMO and i do not cut myself for all those who thought this depressin'story might lead to it. YOUR WRONG!!!! I'm aPUNK I LUV MUSIC NOT CUTTING MY WRIST ill explain more soon over the months ok !!!

HEY!!! TO YOU ALL!!!!

I'm startin' a new page here so b/c i haven't been using this page ina long LONG time im gonna bein' usin' this based on my life lika diary but different. EMotions and stufff and many other things to be told soo il be starting today ina another page ok

**Mikki**